[ He doesn't touch her, and he doesn't hover for restraint, but the way he speaks, and the way his concern and his care radiate out, it's like wrapping a heavy blanket around her shoulders. You've never let me down, and she wants so desperately to believe in something like that, and she knows he believes it, but he doesn't know, and the fact she can't tell him — that the very idea of saying it makes her throat tighten and her stomach turn for nausea — should be disappointment enough. It's a balm, and she doesn't deserve it, but she doesn't have the strength to reject it, either.
So she listens, head bowed, letting the physical consequences run their ruinous course, in trembles and tears that seem unending. There's a morose nostalgia to where the topic shifts. Of course she remembers Tadashi, him and Hiro both. The last time she'd blipped out-and-into the universe, he'd been one of the only people she could call 'friend' left. One of the only people who'd ever had the chance to miss her.
She misses him, too.
But she kept her distances back then, too, and for all Tadashi always reached out to her, too — a little like Jaime tries now — they'd never gotten close. It makes sense to hear about his problem, but she hadn't known it existed back then. She'd spent more of her focus trying to help Hiro, between the two, and... Ugh. Stupid. Is this the time to think about that?
She swallows new thickness in her throat, and nods. ] Okay. We can do that. [ It's not an unfamiliar strategy, either, but there's already too many ghosts in the kitchen now to think more on it. ] Don't think I can eat right now, anyway.
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So she listens, head bowed, letting the physical consequences run their ruinous course, in trembles and tears that seem unending. There's a morose nostalgia to where the topic shifts. Of course she remembers Tadashi, him and Hiro both. The last time she'd blipped out-and-into the universe, he'd been one of the only people she could call 'friend' left. One of the only people who'd ever had the chance to miss her.
She misses him, too.
But she kept her distances back then, too, and for all Tadashi always reached out to her, too — a little like Jaime tries now — they'd never gotten close. It makes sense to hear about his problem, but she hadn't known it existed back then. She'd spent more of her focus trying to help Hiro, between the two, and... Ugh. Stupid. Is this the time to think about that?
She swallows new thickness in her throat, and nods. ] Okay. We can do that. [ It's not an unfamiliar strategy, either, but there's already too many ghosts in the kitchen now to think more on it. ] Don't think I can eat right now, anyway.